[18 Nov 2004|09:53pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | requiem for a dream soundtrack. ] so yea i fucking give up. i decided i mess everything up. im gonna stop talking to people. everytime i talk i fuck something up even more. yup tried to talk to bonnie today, fucked it up. yup thats what i am a fuck up. my friends think it behind my back and im sure my family think its. so i fucking give up. i cant wait to move or atleaast school to be out so i dont have to see anyone i know anymore. so im gonna stop using msn probably. and this journal will be one of my last. im done with all this shit. ill end it by not talkin to anyone. im gonna go through and finish school. the only person i hang out with anymore is derrick and me and him are fuck ups together so it works out. hopefully i can go out of state for schooling. atleast out of the valley. so im goin to sleep now and gonna drag my ass through school tommorow. if i dont come up and seem cheery dont take it personally. i hate everyone equally. ok well im leaving now. 2died             die motherfucker

... [16 Nov 2004|10:52pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | misfits. ] yup life is just fucking peachy. so yeah i wont get into detail here but recent events have payed there toll and ive felt like total shit the last couple day or two. yea i stopped doing pills and drugs along itme ago but its hard to stay away from that shit. so far i have been able to, over a year. but lately its coming back on my mind. so far ive stayed away but i cant garuntee anything. i need to take my mind off everything so i need to fund something to do to stay away from that shit. i wish i could leave utah, im done here. this place is horrible, i have very few good memorys of this place. i want to go somewhere and meet all new people and start over. no drama no heartbreak no friends im not sure of anymore. just me. thats not gonna happen anytime soon. so i will bear with it for now. i wish school was out, there a people there i dont feel like seeing cuz it hurts. i wish i was graduated and could move. well im gonna take some tylenol pm and go to sleep now. ps, why cant it be 9th grade again? me, mitch, chaz, kyle. like it used to be. well whatever bye 3died             die motherfucker

uh huh [12 Nov 2004|11:47pm] [ mood | All of the Above. ] wow bored and though hey why not come on here and read what lucy and karlei are up to cuz they bascially are the only people who write anymore. so yeah good luck guys! that kicks ass you are moving in together. i hope you have a awesome time! you both kick major butt. MAJOR! so yeah whats up with everyone? i tihnk winter is slowly killing all of you. everyone is wierd. maybe its just me but the the hell is up with everyone? i have never seen so many depressed kids. its sad. well all i can say is smile. the song "mad world" should be playing in the background of everyones mind. so yeah notihn really new for me, car broke, being fixed exciting eh? trying for a certain lady. you know who you are. i hope it works out. <*cough> tall red head [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<end*cough.>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] wow bored and though hey why not come on here and read what lucy and karlei are up to cuz they bascially are the only people who write anymore. so yeah good luck guys! that kicks ass you are moving in together. i hope you have a awesome time! you both kick major butt. MAJOR! so yeah whats up with everyone? i tihnk winter is slowly killing all of you. everyone is wierd. maybe its just me but the the hell is up with everyone? i have never seen so many depressed kids. its sad. well all i can say is smile. the song "mad world" should be playing in the background of everyones mind. so yeah notihn really new for me, car broke, being fixed exciting eh? trying for a certain lady. you know who you are. i hope it works out. <*cough> tall red head <end*cough.> well yea no one will probably read this anyway so i will shut it now. Lucy Karlie Bonnie Kelsey you all kick ass. just so you know, thanks for bein my buds. if you 4 dont post a comment i will be saddened, just like the rest of the world. -LATER- 9died             die motherfucker

yuppers [31 Oct 2004|02:59pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Lamb Of God, lucy i need to give you your cd back ] wow i didnt even relise this page still existed, mmmmhhhhmmmm yup well i just thought i would post for shits and giggles. well ok BYE FAGS 3died             die motherfucker

after work buzz [08 Aug 2004|01:13am] so yeah its late and ive slept minimal lately, well i stayed up last night till 3AM helin lil dave get his caddy ready for a show, then went to sleep, woke up at 7AM took my dad to work, then yeah hung out with angela all day while derek got his crx tuned, 308hp at 10psi, so yeah then i go to work from 5pm to now, awesome huh. so yeha my motor build begins soon, muhahahahah i cant wait. so yeah have you guys ever had a like a week where your life was perfect? last week was like that and its still kinda goin that way, i think its funny how everyone looks at all the bad of everything, lifes pretty damn good for me right now. i gotta job thats pretty cool, everyone theres way cool, i have an awesome GF, i have a car that works, shits just lookin up. so yeah if your sad or "emo " (*cough* queers */cough*) fucking smile dumbass's, your in fucking high school lifes not hard. ok haha im goin to sleep so LATER dusty 7died             die motherfucker

[03 Aug 2004|12:38am] yeah so whats up everyone, i thought i would post so lucy wont get mad at me. so yeah not to much new really, i drove alot the last 3 days, over 1000 miles in 3 days not bad huh?, lets see saturday went to wendover 2 times 500 miles, then sunday went to bear lake and came back today so another 500 miles, man my cars a trooper. but yeah i was campin with angela and some of my family that was cool other than the people who were assigned to watch us to make sure nothing went on haha man they are lame. so hopefull yim goin with derrick next week back to bear lake for some boating and hopefully angelas coming again, that would rock :) i should be puttin a pic on here of her soon. i still havent met her parents, which is intimidating the first time but eh i gotta eventually so whatever, me and her are gonna try to watch movies for 24 hours one day, holy shit thats gonna be hard but we will try haha,any moive suggestions would be great. me and her went to the midnights friday with dave and mark and kody and a shitolad of other people and yeah now i remember why i stopped going to them, fucking 3 cool cars racing and the rest were fucking stupid, my bos from iv was racing his corvette there and one of the waiters was racing his trans am that was cool cuz i got into a car conversation with my boss saturday haha it was cool. well ok im all sunburned and sleepy from driving so yeah fuck im so getting a tan next week when igo back to bear lake, haha yeah i can actually wear shorts haha, god school needs to start, i dunno why i like not having to be there but its not the same without it its odd, well i have autoshop for like 4 of my 6 periods so it shouldnt be hard haha, well later dusty 2died             die motherfucker

[26 Jul 2004|12:17pm] so yeah long time no tlak to yall, so iw ill tell you all whats up with me the last month or so, still working at italain village (oh yeah) hey it pays my bills, umm i got a gf :):) shes awesome, ummmm i started a new "project" some of you were aware of my hatchback project well its gone now and im starting all over again with a 94 civic coupe, sohc vtec, and yeha its my new love haha, so hopefull its getting painted for free soon, actual paint this time unlike that hatch, its goin silver most likley its red now, i have a tendency to buy red cars hmmm, well yeha thats whats goin on with me, oh and ima fire cadet now have been for over a month, my first call was a actual fire that was cool, well yeah later yal, dusty 9died             die motherfucker

[13 Jul 2004|03:05pm] this post is for kelsey and karlie and myself, i so found our website, if any of you have suffered from childhood goat trauma go here for help http://www.goat-trauma.org/ they have helped me get through most of my goat trauma. here are some facts some of you might not know: - Each year, over 6000 people are traumatized by goats in the United States alone. - If a child is traumatized by a goat before age five, he/she is five times more likely to become some form of social deviant. - If treatment is received promptly, many of the extremely damaging effects of a goat trauma can be cured. - When given a choice four out five goats will attack a child before attacking either another goat or an adult. - These same goats will choose to assault an adult over another goat more than three times out of five. - There are over 50,000 petting zoos in the United States. - The majority of goat traumas occur before age eight and after age fifty-two. - In a scientific experiment, seven out of ten goats prefer man-made fibers over natural fibers. disturbing i know 3died             die motherfucker

just for lucy [11 Jul 2004|05:17pm] so yeah im posting for lucy cuz shes awesome and so yeah,im gonna try to start posting atleast 2 times a week, well yeah i have a job now well for like am onth but yeah it sucks, i got a new car 94 civic coupe its cool, its red and it real paint ot like m last car haha. well i will try to be posting more often ok and to karlie and kelsey GOATS!!!! aHHHHHH. haha ok bye dusty 5died             die motherfucker

yup [28 Jun 2004|12:09pm] [ music | KMK ] so yeah karlie and lucy write long posts and i start to read them then my eyes hurt when im done i realize i read like 4 pages its wierd. just thought i would say that bye 3died             die motherfucker

wOOt school [28 Apr 2004|07:10am] [ mood | GOAT! ] [ music | Ying Yand Twins - Salt Shaka...... (so so sucks) ] well going to school here in a minute and just wanted to post haha wow me posting how odd huh? well lucy created this for me might as well use it. so yeah i got grounded from my car yeah! the attendance lady called my dad and said i had so many absences that he better get a paper to write them all done. haha i rock! so yeah ceramics today!hooooray! so yeah sorry lucy that i couldnt come over yesterday i will try, maybe bring your car over to my house today and i will give it a look over. well yeah went on a long needed walk with chaz and kyle that was super awesome. we so rock in ever form. so yeah this section im gonna type is for karlie and chaz,,,,, GOATS, dont you love goats? they so rock i have a pic im gonna try and post here it super rocks hahah goats hahaha well im out me karlie and chaz are childhood goat trauma survivors! hahahaha later 3died             die motherfucker

just for my lucy goat [26 Apr 2004|08:39pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Deltron - 3030 ] well im posting because lucy asked me to so how could i say no ;), well yup here i am, im gonna go try and fix her car tommorow for her. hopefully its nothing to big. so yeah ricky is gonna teach me to box that will be fun. they want me to be able to beat aaron which will be hard. so yeah me and alex were cool last week then for some reason this week she decided she doesnt like me. so iw ill elave it at that if she doesnt want to like me im not gonna make her. she thinks i dumped her for desi which is bull shit because desi has a bf she is in "love" with and me and desi have decided long ago to just stay friends. so i dont care let rumors fliy i dont have to defend myself to anyone. i know who i am and thats all i care about.ME. well ok i posted for lucy goat so i am off. later 14died             die motherfucker

yup uh huh [06 Apr 2004|10:57am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Tiger Army - Fog Surrounds ] so yeha its 11 am and im up on a tuesday, SPRING BREAK YEAH!, well i am probably gonna work on cj's car today, we gotta get it done soon and we are pretty close, the engine needs to go in then just assemble the rest, shouldnt be to horribly bad, so yeah i decided nobody post on this thing its pretty funny, well yeah so there is nothing to really talk about, me and derrick went and washed our cars and took some kick ass pictures. our cars are so cool, i am getting pretty good at photgraphy. only because i dont have to do it so its fun. but yeah so i am gonna start auto crossing this season, im nervous and excited though, its gonna be super fun, alot of people watching though so it will be scary, its gonna be at the E center so you guys shoudl come check me out. so yeah people persist on bugging me on the touchy subject you all should know about, its pushing it, stress has returned full time here, i went to wendover for an event and that helped but once i got back the level just rose again, it was good to get a little break from everyones shit. yeah i dont know what im gonna do about it though, probably nothing, but i dunno. i am not used to all this and im not taking it very well. i just want it to STOP. its so udderly horrible i dont tihnk i can take it anymore. i know what i have to do to get it all to stop but im a pussy and hide from that as much as possible. but eh, i just want everything to stop and be normal, ahhhhgggghghhghshshhhhghghg, is all i can say later 3died             die motherfucker

yeah so i rock!!! [02 Apr 2004|02:09pm] yeah so my name is Dusty Baird and i am going to start using my journal on a dayly bases because people really want me to and i love them so i am going to..... die motherfucker

well i will post i guess [01 Apr 2004|05:39pm] [ mood | to many to list ] [ music | king of the hill ] well today was suck-ass-tacular. i hate this day, every year it gets worse. well, yeah so my car got taken and parked across the street by my brother grrr, that pissed me off good, but i didnt have to go to 5th because i was at hom eeating lunch. haha, well yeah so me and aaron went drivin around today and ended up at modern garage and saw a turbo charged rsx get dyno'd it was awesome. kind riced out but alot of money into that car, super cool. but yeah so since me and alex have been going out we have kinda been a couple that alot of people decide to talk about, its getting really really annoying, dont people have better stuff to do? but no all they ask is about "us". why the hell do they care, i just think they wanna hear oh we broke up or something. god its horrible, i told alex today i wouldnt let it bug mewell yeah i will try but most likely not, it always bugs me when people talk about me. grrrr. i have a feeling this will lead to our relationship falling apart will all come from this, and if that does happen i really wanna still talk to her becuase shes awesome to hang out with. i am saying this because i am iffy on whats goin on. i am trying with alex but if people keep this shit up im not sure. so yeah ive been kinda sick lately, i tihnk its stress/anxiety causing it. it really sucks ass, head aches, stomaches aches, all the good stuff, the only good part is im always tired, i like being tired i dont know why but id rather be tired then awake. but eh nothing i can do about it really but live with it. so yeah sunday im goin to wendover yeah! exscape from everything for a whole day of autocross goodness. i live watching autocross, really fast cars driving really fast, i am so doing it this summer it will be super fun. i wanna find a datsun 510 this summer, like a beater and get it because i have wanted one for years and they are sick. well im watching kill of the hill now with aaron sittin behind me and hopefully gonna eat me some pizza if i can get my mom to. well i am off later (thumb down) 4died             die motherfucker

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